time for me

Its time to do me.

i feel like i spend alot of time worrying about other people and trying to help them out. yes theyre my friends and i care deeply for them but i need to care about what goes on in my own life. and as for the fellas, im about to decrease my time spent worrying about my future man. i spending alot of time analyzing myself to see if maybe i need to fix some things about myself before letting another one into my life. but then i think and i think and theres nothing too fix but my overuse of sarcasm. it hasnt been a turnoff though so i think im good. also, seems like whenever i let someone in i get let down. of course each situation in the past has been different but i feel like they were all excuses due to 1 or 2 reasons. so heres my solution. lets wait for love. ha...true love will find its way.. so thats what it is. ima take one day at a time and let life find me

The L word

A big pet-peeve of mine:

I forget people decide that theres a difference beween "I LOVE YOU" and" Im IN Love with you." When i say it theres no difference #justsayin

I wouldnt say either one if i didnt mean it. Whats the point of saying the first if you dont mean it the other way too?? I just feel like people throw words around like they dont mean anything. And when they do put it out there for real and the other person doesnt take it seriously or they dont understand, someone always gets hurts.

Dont say it if you dont mean it. #justsayin

Old Shoes New Views

Today marks the beginning of a new time for me. A new time is a vague way for me to announce a new stage of life that I feel I have stepped into. This fresh look at life has been brought on by many things that have happened in the past two years or so.

Just thinking about the relationships I have with the people I hold as dear friends, family members and co workers makes me appreciate the life i have been given. I could rattle on and on about my rocky journey but I'm not looking for sympathy. My purpose is to share with those that are close to me my opinions, thoughts, and ideas. In previous times I have written endless notes in those old things called journals or diaries. But now, having grown up and learned from my mistakes and from others I seem to have less to complain about or worry about. I feel no need to go crazy on paper. Through reading other blogs recently made me want to express my feelings as well. I cant promise that everything will be deep and I cant promise that my sarcastic remarks wont turn you away. at the same time thats your loss.

the golden child

And the award goes to :: Emmys 2010

I found these pictures at http://awards.tv.yahoo.com/photos/140-2010-emmys-red-carpet-report-card

I dont know who gets to grade these but i have to agree with the As and Bs that made it to the top.

Dear Romeo

http://www.fashionising.com/pictures/
http://www.fashionising.com/pictures/s--Zara-Men-Autumn-Winter-2010-look-book-7629-1.html

Take a Second look

http://www.esquire.com/the-side/style-guides/new-york-fashion-week-fall-2010-mens
http://www.diesel.com/collection/diesel/dsl-fw2010-collection/filter/male

On the street

Diesel Collection Fall/winter 2010


http://www.diesel.com/collection/diesel/dsl-fw2010-collection/filter/male

Must invest in this

50s sexy!!

SPring break Shoppin trip

SO i bought a few items for spring. They're all casual with a few accessories to perk them up.

Earthy

D&G Spring 2010

My Girl Chanel Iman

she fits this profile/style perfectly but i think shes more of a girly girl unlike me :-P

Spring Flavors by Oscar de la renta

im so tired of winter so i've started watching my favorite designers spring 2010 shows. i cant wait to wear orange and bright blue!
Oscar is my love!

Loving Leather

I gotta have these!!

Words of wisdom

[the heart of the prudent acquires knowledge]
[death and life are in the power of the tongue]
[he who finds a WIFE finds a GOOD thing]
[a man who has friends must himself be friendly]

my favorites from Proverbs 18:1-24

Fresh Start

Heres to a new start!!!

Im blessed to say that i've made it through 2 decades! It sounds weird but exciting at the same time. Its now 2010 and its time to paint a new picture to add to my collection. What this one will look like.. i have no idea. Im ready to shatter challenges and build lively new memories.

I definitely need to start writing poetry again...maybe if i actually keep up with the blogging it might give me some ideas.

The past year was a crazy battle. Not only was school difficult but i battled with my health. Last winter i was very sick, cold turned to flu, turned even worse. My breathing was restricted and I had my friend take me to the hospital...only to find out pain killers was all i could take. That was superbowl sunday... im sorry Andre for interrupting that game lol but thank you. <3>

oh and boys make me sick sometimes too :-P

June'09 came around. my friend Dotrell calls me at 9 in the mornin to ask me if i had heard from Andre. I said no and he said to call Andre. No answer. dotrell broke the news to me that andre died from a random act of violence. I watched numerous news clips and read articles over and over, in disbelief learning of his death. Ive never cried so hard in my life. I think maybe he was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I don't know what he was in to. Later i found out disappointing things about his lifestyle which made him being gone feel even worse because i thought i knew him but i really didn't. His killer is still out there. Im still not over it. <3>

Have you ever been away from family and thought what if im gone and something happens and i cant get to them in time? i have always had that feelin that while im away at school something traumatic would happen to a family member or even me. I am a positive person so i dont know where all this came from.

The weekend or friday before thanksgiving my mom calls me and said my dad had had a mild heartattack. He ended up pulling through surgery and everything is fine now. His arteries were in bad shape.. from years of fatty foods...its funny how it takes something dramatic for people to wake up and realize they need to make major changes before their life is taken away from them.

No more steak and potatoes dad, i need you to be here!! <3

Christmas came and went in a flash. We went to atlanta/alphretta to my dads brothers place to see him and his family. Good times, good food. I got to ride a motorcycle for the first time. Im sure there will be more !!! Those little moments playing football with the boys and playing long card games was also fun. Oh and Drews experimenting with a new ice cream color... it was gray like spackle paint. The Flavor, mint chocolate chip <3

although 2009 was full of hardships and pain , i look forward to a new year in 2010. With happier moments and less tears.

-Mizz B