evaluation

Its been a few weeks since he told me we werent ever thing. it took me a hot week to calm down and another good bit to evaluate things. right now im just in mixed emotions. i do still love him , even tho he did me wrong. and we still talk and its hard for me to let go and just be friends. im able to carry on a conversation but at the same time its never gone be the same. im not losing all hope because i know he still loves me and cares for me. i just dont understnad why we cant be together. its always been on his terms and on his time. he needs to get real and stop wasting my time...or i need to let go of these feelings.. :-(. It just seems like its always a loss to me like ive f-ed up somewhere.*and i know i havnt* not being firm enough with my words. its al so frustrating. i believe its his loss not mine..i guess i should move on ...find all those things ive been longing for and missing...its funny though cuz i thought i had..